>The Complexities of Relationships: Part Three

>So let us continue with part three of this relationship series, shall we?


When men attempt to check my jealousy threshold by playing games using real or imagined women, it is an insult to me. So much energy is wasted in an attempt to see if I’m the jealous type, and in a twisted way to resolve that only through jealousy am I truly in love, when we could actually be spending that time growing closer and deeper in love. Why would you want to hurt another person? Why would you want them doubting your level of commitment and trustworthiness? Why would you want to play with someone’s mind and heart, when you don’t want someone doing that to you?


I believe what my father taught me when I was a teenager. He said, “a man will not only tell you but he will show you the very first time you meet him the kind of man he is. I don’t know why you women think it takes three months, six months, nine months, or a year to discover the truth about men. We show and tell you on day one….” Even when a man is trying to be “slick” he will still reveal his true nature, that is God’s little joke on him for playing love games. It is up to the woman to truly see the man and not the image she wants him to be. God has equipped us with the tools of insight and intuition, yet we ignore them because we are overwhelmed and overruled by lust, loneliness, and a desire to love and be loved.

What do I want and need in a relationship? 

What I want and need sounds very simple, but have obviously been difficult ‘tasks’ for the men that have flowed in and out of my life. Understand that when I say “I want” from this point on it is including my needs. As I understand the difference between the two, I also understand that the things I need I now also want; so to simplify things I will say “I want”.  

I want a man who trusts me, is trustworthy, faithful, honest, keeps no secrets and tells me no lies; he is considerate, caring and kind, humble, honorable, and places God first in his life, his family second, and his career third. I want a man who has my back emotionally, psychologically, physically, and spiritually. A man who is a leader that lovingly leads by example- not one who is moved and motivated about being “the man” or “the boss”. A man who is respected, not feared or simply tolerated.

I want a man who wants to be my husband, faithful and true to me and only me. I don’t want to be your mistress, ‘friend with benefits’ or ‘side chick’. I’m also not interested in the long-term dating and seemingly longer engagement (I’m not 24 anymore). I want a man who wants to be a full-time, nurturing and supportive father, dad, and daddy to our children. 

I will not be with a person who is controlling emotionally, mentally, spiritually, financially, sexually, physically, or on any other level. The man who will have 100% of me will never talk down to me, negatively call me out of my name, say cruel things to me, punish me by withholding his love, attention, or affection. The look in his eyes will never show signs of violent tendencies towards me or our loved ones. When he looks at me his eyes will show love even behind feelings of pain or anger. 
I want a man who can take care of his responsibilities, someone who does not make excuses for failures but gets back up on his feet and tries again without question or hesitation. I want a man who focuses his energy on uplifting me rather than tearing me down and dissecting my strengths, weaknesses and quirks. One who is not so focused on proving he is smarter, disproving my level of intelligence, or trying to make me feel bad because I am smart. I’m not in the world trying to highlight my intelligence. It speaks for itself. I don’t need to toot my own horn, God speaks through me- my intelligence is His flowing through me. 

I would rather agree to disagree with a person, than waste precious time trying to convince them that my way is the right way, or why theirs isn’t. The person who won’t agree to a ‘tie’ has issues with insecurity and control. In my mind the truth is always revealed so eventually one of us will be proven wrong, but it doesn’t have to be today through my will or yours.

I want a man who when we’re together he makes me feel like I’m the only woman in the room, the building, the world…he makes me feel special and loved…and he can achieve this even when we are apart. As a dear friend said to me a year or two ago, “for every woman he’s eyeballing, there are four men checking you out”. So if a man is more interested in trying to see if he can catch the attention of another woman while he is with me, he better wise up to the fact that God has several other men in line waiting to take his spot and do a better job. I want my man to feel like a king and I want him to treat me like his queen.   

I want a man who does not perpetuate double-standards and male chauvinistic tendencies; as I live an autonomous life so does he. I want a man, not a boy in a man’s body. I’m not into raising a man-child nor should he want to hold the hand of a damsel in distress who can’t do anything without someone else. I’m strong not weak, but don’t get me wrong I know when and how to ask for help when I need it. I was raised to think beyond the typical, traditional roles set for women. I don’t think I know it all or can do it all, but I know I can pick up a phone and ask around. 

I don’t want to be a man, I wear pants but I’m not trying to wear his. I do however want respect. We bleed the same way, put our pants on the same way, and we both have feelings and can be hurt. I want a man who respects me and understands that he has a one-of-a-kind woman, so I should never be clumped in and categorized with the last, the first (or any in between) that he had, because I’m uniquely different and should be treated accordingly.

We don’t like feeling like a number at our doctor’s, dentist’s, or lawyer’s office, so why would anyone think a person wants to feel like a number in a relationship? “”Ah yes, this is boyfriend number 5” how awful does that sound? Not as bad as the internal conversation that takes place where boyfriend number 5 is treated just like 4,3,2,1… were. 


We must learn from our past. In my past men complained that my career and family were more important than they were. I received complaints about my phone taking precedence over a decent conversation, because I had a tendency of keeping my phone in hand or close by all day every day. I would go on a date and would interrupt our conversation to take a call, respond to a text message or email, not realizing how utterly rude that is. Basically, I was saying, “you’re not important enough to invest my undivided time into”; not even during dinner or the movies.

I was told that I didn’t make time for a relationship, that they didn’t appreciate being “scheduled in”. I also heard that I didn’t “let a man be a man” and that I was “too independent”. Now only a complete fool would listen to these complaints and be convinced that these people are wrong. I had to look at myself in the mirror. 

Tomorrow I will share what I saw when I took a long look in the mirror. I look forward to your feedback concerning all three parts of this series so far. Part four will be just as engaging!  

Copyright 2010. Natasha L. Foreman. All Rights Reserved.


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